Random brain dump =
This weekend was a weekend of extremes for me. As y’all know Alex has his first love otherwise known as Jeeps. It is a love I tolerate but in all truthfulness could give a hoot less about one way or another. Last weekend he went to a Jeep show with a friend. Big whoop. This weekend he spent TWELVE hours working on her Jeep. I wasn’t too pleased and mostly what I was, was hurt.
Now the running gag between all of us (him, her, her S.O. and myself) is that J (her s.o.) and I get out of “Jeep duty” when these two fill in for each other. I normally don’t mind but this weekend set me off. I feel like I’m “not enough” a lot of times. Opposites attract and in many many ways that is what happened in our marriage. The thing is that life doesn’t make for the best or easiest of marriages. It can cause fights and tears like it did this weekend. So that was a major downer.
Ironically that same day I had a major high. (I swear I’d claim pregnancy from these mood swings if I didn’t KNOW that isn’t the case.) I took my gun safety course and during the course I explained that my father and Alex were planning to go and take advantage of this Groupon soon. One of the details of the Groupon was that they would each get to shoot a fully automatic weapon**.
**I’m going to attempt to get this right but bear with me. Fully automatic rifles have not been able to be imported, sold, etc for civilian use since 1986. Which means there is a limited supply and a high demand. (Don’t ask me why demand is high.) Anyway, so that means to own it costs LOTS of money. Hence why most people don’t own one…they just borrow / rent one for a short time and that can be pricey.
Back to my story – so I’m at this range, telling my instructor this after we just go over why I do get scared of the noise. (Of all the things about a gun..its the noise. I’m retarded.) Then suddenly he leans over in his magic bag of tricks and pulls out one of these bad boys and asks if I’d like to shoot one before my husband and father. Um HELL YEA! So he took video so I could prove it to him and y’all my cheeks hurt from grinning so big. It was ridiculous and honestly I still giggle each time I watch my video.
So yea I get home from this excitement ready to share with my hubby – he aint there. He’s still working on that damn Jeep. I think I sat on the floor and cried like an idiot for 20 minutes with the dog and cats looking at me like I was insane. Can you hate someone’s hobby? Is that even fair?
When Alex got home yea we fought. It wasn’t fun (is it ever?) and we did manage to actually talk about crap. He apologized for not giving me a heads up that it was taking so long and I apologized for getting so upset that I couldn’t talk rationally. Then he kissed me and y’all – it was like he was trying to convey every emotion he feels about in that kiss. Romance novel worthy I’m sure given its been 4 days and I’m STILL thinking about it.
Opposites attract and when we clash its big and scary but oh man there is a reason we love one another.
Oh I also got myself a pedicure to kill time on Saturday. I’m sure y’all think its weird that I share photos of my toes, but well its “my thing.”
Sunday was another roller coaster day. The morning started out with me waking up SUPER early (think 6 a.m.) all because of some horrid nightmare involving super storms, crushed homes, and dead loved ones. Yup I’m a freak. Few hours later we’re prepping to go to breakfast and I notice Alex texting. I’m all “What the hell?” He thinks it’s no big deal and yet again we clash with our differences in what is and isn’t acceptable. I’m sure everyone has an opinion but there isn’t a “Right” answer here. We just differ and so we clash.
Then we had a great meal post mini-clash before heading to my FIL’s house. I will say time there was pretty nice and relaxing because well I can’t be distracted by housework or anything lol. So I’m forced to sit and chill – so I did just that. We had a great dinner together before the “guys” all indulged me in watching the Olympics Closing Ceremony. I watched up until the “Always look on the Bright side of life” song part.
It’s just crazy how I feel lately – even about this blog. But that is more for later. Now remember…